One more thing...

Even if this post finds nothing but the void, then at least I said it. No algorithm, no advertisement, no leading you on.

Just me. I’ve said what I said. If I change my mind. Then I changed it.

Regardless, it’s going to be authentic. I can’t help it anymore. Tactful, yes, humble, sometimes learning, authenticity.

Learning to speak my mind.

Apparently that’s rare these days. But wait..I should clarify something.

Speaking one’s mind does not necessarily mean speaking one’s truth. We often confuse the two.

This leads to a misplaced loyalty to a bad thought process that leads to a bad behaviour.

We get so caught up in believing what we think we know, that we never knew what we were supposed to know and when we were supposed to know it.

So caught up in our own distorted and self rewarding thought process that we forget to check whether we have it right or not.

I get it right, I’ve got it wrong. Repeatedly.

Live authenticity.

I just want to be happy.

I know what brings me joy, that’s focusing on the things that I’m passionate about.

They make me happy. They inspire me. I’m starting to see the people around me who truly inspire that life and growth in me. I haven’t been good at identifying that before.

That’s growth and self respect I guess.

I realized something about love and finding life (not love) this week,

Inspiration to create endlessly is a juxtaposition in itself.

Art is never finished, it’s only abandoned, yes, but that’s the wrong way to look at it.

The artist just moved on to the next. They couldn’t help it, the last one taught them the lesson that they needed to know. That’s called practice.

Life is practice. Tripping over one’s self is the best part. It’s where the truth is.

Time to move on.

I’m happy, truly. I’m still. well…not all the time.

-Nathan